Integrity isn’t synonymous with mediocrity. I used to think that there’s nobility and dignity in simplicity rather than having superficial goods that are wasted on the individual and for everyone. This speaks to the privileged upbringing I have had (Conversation for another day since it didn’t protect me emotional and psychological wounds.) Aspiration was seriously lacking for awhile in my life.

It’s not that I didn’t work hard or get good grades or even had a job. I just didn’t have a purpose that lit up my day with gratitude and joy. I liked my earthy side more than my heavenly side. I didn’t even believe I had an heavenly side even though I tried to signal it via the grades, the poems and the job. I was consistent in my inconsistency because I didn’t have clarity about earth and heavens colliding in me.

It’s impossible to give gold to someone who’s not willing to be a digger so I recognize how this post is more of a self reflection and if this resonates with you then you have your own metaphors otherwise just keep on digging.

Day 2 of 30. Part 2. See you tomorrow.